The great man Winston Churchill once said
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else".
He's right, isn't he?
The last few weeks, if not months, have been long. They have been slow and monotonous, boring and pointless, lacking any sense of direction at all. It's been hard.
This week however, I want to be different. I want to be positive, I want to be the optimist I once was. I want to see the glass half full, I want to see the bright side of the problems in front of me, I want to see a smile on my face every time I look in the mirror. I just want to be happy!
The biggest question on my mind today... What's the source? What is the source of all this negativity that I have fallen victim to? Where does it come from? Why does it exist? What is its purpose?
I'm not stupid, therefore I know I can't answer the above questions, and even if I did, I'd be powerless to make change. That, of course, is life.
I believe the source is ourselves. In otherwords, our own wrong doings, failures, weaknesses. That's where all the negativity begins. Most of all, it's our own fears. Our fear of making mistakes, and of being mistaken. Our fear of death, and our fear of living. The fear of our shadow and what we are and aren't capable of doing.
Here's a verse from Lupe Fiasco's 'Words I Never Said'. Pay attention, It sums up exactly my feelings!
"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through
It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said"
You see? That's exactly it!!
These minds of ours have us all locked up! We simply can't get out what it is we want to say, what it is we feel! Society is responsible for that. Indirectly of course. It is still, in principal, the fault of our own weakness.
Now, the fact is that we will never defeat our fears. If ever something was impossible, defeating our fears is that thing. We can however, push them around. We can shove them into the darkness, into the shadows...but ONLY if there is light. In fact, Albert Einstein once pointed out that there is no such thing as darkness...just an absence of light. You cannot measure darkness... only light. Similarly, there is no such thing as cold...just an absence of heat. You cannot measure cold...heat is the energy.Einstein's lesson can be put into action when we look at the empty space that is our emotional health.
There is no such thing as depression or darkness, only the absence of happiness and light.
We make the mistake of believing darkness is an energy in its self. It is not. It is a vacuum waiting to be filled, and only you and I can do that!
.
"I am an optimist. It doesn't seem too much use being anything else".
He's right, isn't he?
The last few weeks, if not months, have been long. They have been slow and monotonous, boring and pointless, lacking any sense of direction at all. It's been hard.
This week however, I want to be different. I want to be positive, I want to be the optimist I once was. I want to see the glass half full, I want to see the bright side of the problems in front of me, I want to see a smile on my face every time I look in the mirror. I just want to be happy!
The biggest question on my mind today... What's the source? What is the source of all this negativity that I have fallen victim to? Where does it come from? Why does it exist? What is its purpose?
I'm not stupid, therefore I know I can't answer the above questions, and even if I did, I'd be powerless to make change. That, of course, is life.
I believe the source is ourselves. In otherwords, our own wrong doings, failures, weaknesses. That's where all the negativity begins. Most of all, it's our own fears. Our fear of making mistakes, and of being mistaken. Our fear of death, and our fear of living. The fear of our shadow and what we are and aren't capable of doing.
Here's a verse from Lupe Fiasco's 'Words I Never Said'. Pay attention, It sums up exactly my feelings!
"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through
It’s so loud Inside my head
With words that I should have said!
As I drown in my regrets
I can’t take back the words I never said"
You see? That's exactly it!!
These minds of ours have us all locked up! We simply can't get out what it is we want to say, what it is we feel! Society is responsible for that. Indirectly of course. It is still, in principal, the fault of our own weakness.
Now, the fact is that we will never defeat our fears. If ever something was impossible, defeating our fears is that thing. We can however, push them around. We can shove them into the darkness, into the shadows...but ONLY if there is light. In fact, Albert Einstein once pointed out that there is no such thing as darkness...just an absence of light. You cannot measure darkness... only light. Similarly, there is no such thing as cold...just an absence of heat. You cannot measure cold...heat is the energy.Einstein's lesson can be put into action when we look at the empty space that is our emotional health.
There is no such thing as depression or darkness, only the absence of happiness and light.
We make the mistake of believing darkness is an energy in its self. It is not. It is a vacuum waiting to be filled, and only you and I can do that!
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